Hell, keep going.*
It's been a long, tough summer. Too hot, too dry.
Too many emotions.
I feel older and tired.
Quick summary -
I've spent the last years writing less and working more. Caring for family members. Dealt with the horrors of Alzheimer's. Very many caregiving duties. Moved my parents out of their home of 40 years, and took another entire year to sell and clear out all of its excessive contents. Had to sell the house. Lost my Dad. Grieving. And pulling things together at all sorts of levels for Mom.
Watched my children grow into teens and adults. Watched them struggle in school. Watched school not help. Transitioned the oldest very successfully into a very good college that she loves. Missed her being in her childhood and our home.
Working my hardest to help the younger one do the same. She's a different person, so very different needs, currently involving much patience and therapy at exorbitant cost financially, emotionally, and chronologically.
Keeping it together. Enjoying the blessings. Still have a stable, loving family despite all of the stresses and stressors. Working more than ever and hoping to work even more when B leaves home.
Trying to remember or rediscover who I am, what I like, what I do, and how I help the world
The world needs help, and people need kindness. I try to live that in my days the best I can.
That's me. That's where my blog went. And where my time and energy went. And what I'm doing.
Maybe I'll come back here. Or come forward here and move ahead.
Try not to get swept away by excessive heat - either from climate changes or from world events or from personal struggles.
Stay cool.
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*Winston Churchill
